Moose Returns

So Moose has been on a hiatus, since- well- September. As you could tell from my last post I wasn’t feeling very positive. I am still not up to my old self. Although my life from the outside seems pretty nice, I am a wreck. I don’t have to work. Meaning we can still eat and pay our bills even if I never get a job. We can’t get a new car or anything that might require a loan, but we are ok. My kids do well in school and don’t cause trouble. My husband is supportive and loving. But I am still too chicken to get a job. I know it is all in my head. I know logically that I could find a job and I could do it. But the anxiety is making me sabotage every attempt. I know it is ridiculous. I know that I am just being selfish but here it is all stupid and selfish for someone to read. I haven’t been writing because I felt like what was the point. I am not in school anymore and who wants to read about some selfish old lady who can’t even get up the courage to apply for a job. Then I thought no one reads this blog anyway so why not write for myself. So Moose is back writing. Maybe writing regular will help me. Maybe not, but at this point it can’t hurt.